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Newtown Residents Demolish A School, And Violent Memories

Originally published on Fri October 25, 2013 6:55 am

Demolition has begun at Sandy Hook Elementary School, where a gunman killed 20 students and six adults last December. Bricks will be pulverized, steel melted down and a new school built at the same location.

Allison Hornak attended Sandy Hook Elementary School as a kid. After college, she returned home to Newtown, Conn., and opened an art gallery that's within walking distance of where the mass killing took place.

Hornak says she has a lot of fond memories of Sandy Hook — like a teacher who let her chew gum in class, and the pathways through the school.

"The hallways all ran into one another and just formed this big loop," Hornak says. "And when you were walking through, you'd see the inner courtyard and watching the seasons change in that courtyard ... really stands out to me."

Since the shooting, residents have found themselves wrestling with a very personal question — what to do with a place that created so many fond memories, and one horrific one.

"It's where we bring up our kids. It's where our own family story plays out," says John Woodall, a local psychiatrist. "So, to have this building be the site of this horror cuts right to the core of people's identities."

After the Dec. 14, 2012 mass murder, Woodall counseled people in Newtown. For those parents and teachers, returning was not an option.

"They don't want to go back, and vehemently so. For some, it was just too overwhelming to go into that space again without becoming unhinged," he says. "You can't ask people to bear something that is, for them, unbearable."

After many public hearings and a town-wide referendum, residents voted to accept $50 million in state money to raze the building and construct a new school at the same site.

Demolition began this month, though none of it is visible from the street. Security is tight — outside and in.

Newtown First Selectman Patricia Llodra says all workers at Sandy Hook must sign confidentiality agreements that "essentially says that those workers will take no photographs, they'll remove no items, that they won't be discussing the process on social media."

Building materials will be processed on-site to ensure they don't pop up for sale. The town is also working to change the route parents use to drive into the new school, which Llodra says is an emotional "trigger point."

"For many people, the last experience that families and teachers and kids had was running down that driveway to escape what they thought was imminent danger — and it truly was danger," says Llodra.

As the anniversary approaches, people in Newtown are seeing symbols of moving on everywhere — even in the new sidewalk installed that was installed outside Allison Hornak's art gallery in downtown Sandy Hook.

"People don't want to come here anymore — for a little bit, at least," says Hornak. "And yet, the town is making this effort to invite people ... back in, to walk through. I just thought that was really great. And I'm happy that they put that in. It's small, but kind of really symbolic."

The goal is to have the school razed by the first anniversary of the shooting, Dec. 14, though no town-wide event will happen to mark the anniversary.

Instead, Patricia Llodra says she hopes residents use the day to "pledge an act of kindness to one another."

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STEVE INSKEEP, HOST:

Demolition has begun at the Sandy Hook school, where a gunman killed 20 young students and six adults in December. Bricks will be pulverized, steel melted down, and a new school built at the same location.

Patrick Skahill of member station WNPR has more.

PATRICK SKAHILL, BYLINE: Allison Hornak attended Sandy Hook Elementary School as a kid. After college, she returned home to Newtown, Connecticut and opened an art gallery that's within walking distance of last year's mass killing. Hornak says she has a lot of fond memories of Sandy Hook: a teacher who let her chew gum in class, a yellow bench outside the main office and walking around the school.

ALLISON HORNAK: The hallways all ran into one another and just formed this big loop. And when you were walking through, you'd see the inner courtyard, and so watching the seasons change in the courtyard - just kind of that pathway really stands out to me.

SKAHILL: Since the shooting, residents have found themselves wrestling with a very personal question: what to do with a place that created so many fond memories and one horrific one.

HORNAK: There's lots of history in that school, and there's lots of meaning.

JOHN WOODALL: It's where we bring up our kids. It's where our own family story plays out. So to have this building be the site of this horror cuts right to the core of people's identities.

SKAHILL: That's John Woodall. He's a local psychiatrist. After December 14, he counseled people in Newtown. For those parents and teachers, returning was not an option.

WOODALL: They don't want to go back, and vehemently so. For some, it was just too overwhelming to go into that space again without becoming unhinged, or without putting their kids in that environment again. So you can't argue with that. I mean, you can't ask people to bear something that, for them, is unbearable.

SKAHILL: After many public hearings and a town-wide referendum, residents agreed. They voted to accept 50 million in state money to raze the building and construct a new school at the same site. Demolition began this month, but from the street, you can't what's happening. Security is tight, outside and in.

Newtown First Selectman Patricia Llodra says all workers at Sandy Hook must sign confidentiality agreements.

PATRICIA LLODRA: That essentially says that those workers will take no photographs. They'll remove no items, that they won't be discussing the process on social media.

SKAHILL: Building materials will be processed onsite to ensure they don't pop up for sale. The town is also working to change the route parents drive into the new school.

LLODRA: For many people, the last experience that families and teachers and kids had was running down that driveway to escape what they thought was imminent danger, and it truly was danger. So, it just is a hot point. It's a trigger point for people's emotionality, to think they would be traveling that same route that the killer traveled, that they had to travel to escape.

SKAHILL: As the one year anniversary approaches, people in Newtown are seeing symbols everywhere: the school, its driveway and, in downtown Sandy Hook, even the new sidewalk installed right outside Allison Hornak's art gallery.

HORNAK: And I just thought that that was so beautiful. People don't want to come here anymore - for a little bit, at least. And yet the town is making this effort to invite people to have this intimate relationship, invite people back in, walk through. I just thought that was really great. And I'm happy that they put that in. It's small, but kind of really symbolic.

SKAHILL: The goal is to have the school razed by the first anniversary of the shooting. But on December 14th, there will be no town-wide event marking the anniversary. Instead, Patricia Llodra says she hopes residents use the day to pledge an act of kindness to one another.

For NPR News, I'm Patrick Skahill, in Hartford. Transcript provided by NPR, Copyright NPR.